Why I Write… To Turn Wounds Into Wisdom
My purpose is to help your pain meet peace by the end of this piece.
There is a story about a carrot, an egg, and a coffee bean.
All three are placed in boiling water.
The carrot goes in hard… and comes out as mush.
The egg goes in fragile… and comes out hardened.
But the coffee bean…
it does something different.
It changes the water.
I write because I was born a coffee bean
I am a change agent
There is goodness inside of me that flows freely
I operate in love
and I am here to make a difference
When I leave this earth
I want to hear “well done”
So I cannot always say what I think
My only job is to please my Father in Heaven
and obey his Word
This is why I share my words
so you can know the God I know
I see my story as a living, breathing, walking testimony
and I have no choice but to bear my heart
in every word I write
so I never drown in my sorrows
I pray you release too
Believe in the power of your words
your mindset
and the resurrection of Jesus Christ
and watch how your life transforms too
we got this
When I was in the 7th grade, my English teacher said these words and my soul took heart and believed her…
“your words can heal your pain”
I write because my hands shake and tremble when I begin to flow
I write because Jada reads every blog and she will soon be on social media one day too
I write to teach people
The body wants to discharge discomfort
And if we are not careful our words will kill faster than any bullet, car accident, or surgery
Words have power
We must speak life
We must write to give our feelings names
and make room to learn what God is trying to reveal to us in the moment
Learn to call on the name of Jesus in hard times
and learn to use your words to magnify God and not your problems
This is biblical
My body is a vessel
I have learned to write to process and examine myself
The Holy Spirit guides me
and I release what flows freely from my soul
I hope this heals like it heals me
I have so much that is yet to be written
books
poems
plays
and maybe even movies
God will use me how he sees fit
and I will always be willing
I write because sometimes you can't speak
you have to just listen
When the Lord speaks
and his instructions are clear
you obey
I write to speak freely
because sometimes my words don't come out
or when they do
they are picked apart
misunderstood
or mocked
I stand firm in my truth
and that is why I write
Once it is written
my conversations flow more freely
and I know exactly what I need to say
Reading is a civil rights issue
we have too many illiterate people in this country
and I write to shed light on what is happening
in cities like Pine Bluff, Arkansas
and hoods all over the country
our kids are dying are rapid rates
If I do not write
I will drown in sorrow
I write because it is the least I can do
while God is continuing to pull me deeper
in the ocean of unknown waters
but I know that he is with me
I write so I never go numb
so I always remember
so I can look back and see how far God has brought me
and all he has revealed along my journey
I write for all generations
I write for my babies back home in Pine Bluff
I feel as though I left the 1000's to give my one daughter the chance at a life we have always imagined
I write for the ones to come who will need guidance
I write to heal
to help
to surrender my words
my hands
my life to God
I write to honor Daylon Burnett
and all those who's soul cries out Long Live Jack
I write to honor the lives I have lost and leave behind
I write to carry on
to make room
to release
because it is only so much the human body can take
and I have been strong for a very long time
I write to make sense of the world
to share my reflections and revelations
to turn wounds to wisdom
I write to Glorify God with my words
I hope that I inspire
I pray that people's pain meets peace
each time they read my words
and that they begin to write their own truth as well
they may not share it publicly
but that's okay
healing is personal
I have been writing to connect the dots my entire life
my words will never perish
I find hope in knowing that I can pass wisdom down
to my grand children
great grand children
and beyond
I write so that even my loved ones that are behind bars can receive my words
let neither death nor hell keep me from declaring the Goodness of God
this is personal
I am just compelled to share it with every person
Thank you God for the gifts you have blessed me with
I am learning to lean in
and I will never look back
My daughter having my wisdom matters more to me than anything in this world
because I am raising her with a deceased father
he passed when she was 5 years old
and I truly believe that he, like so many other black men in our country, never learned how to heal their pain
we can not do it alone
it takes God and a willing vessel
choose to let God use you
choose to let your pain make you better not bitter
peace is possible
but it is only found in understanding and applying the Word
I write to mirror my heart back to me
and to allow God to heal me as I go
my writings are not always polished
sometimes I can barely begin
some pages of my journal are just tear stained
but I never stop pouring
we will drown in the pool
and never make it to the ocean
if we do not learn how to truly cast our cares
release
let go
surrender
Your words either help or hurt
heal or harm
offend or encourage
choose wisely
there is no such thing as neutral
be real with yourself
and remember you are only responsible for your best
you can plant the seed
God handles the rest
you can lead a horse to water
but you can't make it drink
your words matter
my words matter
find your voice
and let the lamb in you
learn to roar like the mighty lion you are
there is goodness inside of you too
it's okay to tell God about your problems
but don't forget to tell your problems about God too
He is bigger than any mountain you may be facing
declare
use your words as weapons for the kingdom of God
and tell darkness
it has no power
For Jada
for generations
and all my loved ones
I write because my heart gets heavy
but I find comfort in releasing
I know that life is precious
and tomorrow is never promised
so I pray you start today
release